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11:45 am
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Re: A goat has been found
I pressed down on this laptop and that was the first fill in thing for the subject. Awesome.
I stayed up until 5:30 talking with Jenneh. That was the best idea ever. I'm sooooo tired ;_;
I get to go program today. Like, I have to go down to the lab and do everything forever for the transmitter board. Making sure my packets are correctly designed is the most important thing. I should probably start grouping things into bytes, but screw it, why?
My partner for artist collab wrote our paper last night. I read over it and it was good. A bit different, but that was because the voice wasn't mine or non-specific. We get to build the JFK assassination scene out of legos. How rad are we? MEGARAD
School is going well, I guess. I'm pretty sure I did poorly on my systems test, but I'd like to think I passed. We'll see tomorrow or Friday, I guess.
I keep forgetting stuff. I should find a better system. Notepads or something. I forgot about engineering week today and that was bad. I forgot about getting rooms for MEK last week and that was also bad. I think I'll go reserve another room today. Maybe our luck will be better next week and we'll get a good room (Senate or Escondito).
Secrat Cospray is going well. We're honestly like halfway done. Holy crap, right? WE'LL NEVER MAKE IT! JUNE IS LIKE IN 2 HOURS!
Anyway, I have find more places on the internet to visit. Maybe bash. It's been a while since I've gone there.
Colby
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01:51 am
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V-day
I've got a busy V-day ahead of me. I've got a paper to write, a program to finish, and to start writing stuff for my next story in nonfiction. I'm thinking of doing an instructional thing about how to build a PC, but adding in alot of humor. It will detail my building of Bertha 2.0 and how i was naked for the whole process. That's right, I did it. Now every time you see her, you'll think of me sitting in my room naked, putting her together.
My most recent paper went over really well, apparently, and that's good. I need to write more, and this is sort of a push in the right direction. I really hope that one day I end up writing every day. How rad would that be to just sit down every day and crank out a short story or a poem (ew) or just some piece of writing that let me hone my skill a little more. It's kind of like nina and beth's tuesday art thing, except mine's way more impossible because my major doesnt let me do anything ever for the rest of time D:
Anyway, I'm going to keep trying and try to make my head stay above water. Here I go!
Colby
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01:28 am
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POSTING IS HARD
New school year, new classes, old friends, cons, woo!
I went to Ikkicon, and apparently, I was a rad House. My costume was pretty sweet. Look on N*'s youtube account for the vid of our skit.
This is mostly a news post. I'll start updating more with thoughts instead of dumb things like this. I'm in the programming mentality now, so it's hard to elaborate on feelings and the like.
COLBY
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11:34 pm
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New Year!
Well, new school year at least. I had my tonsils taken out 2 weeks ago. My voice is pretty much back to normal, but that hydrocodone is starting to do a number on me. I've decreased my dosage to 2 tsps, and that seems to be effective, though last night's hydrocodone induced waking sleep thing produced plots for 2 weeeeeird short stories, both of which will be written when I find time. I have to write one like a valley girl. That'll be interesting.
Tomorrow is the T/Th thing for classes and I'm hoping that project lab goes well. Electronics 2 i'm worried about, but we'll just have to see if Storrs is a good teacher or not. I had him earlier and he kinda sucked, but we'll see. So far Communications looks challenging and film studies would be more fun if I hadn't had been so out of it due to the pain meds. Good thing I found the right dosage, huh? The tutor class should go well, as should discrete. My first homework in discrete is to describe the rules of the Addition Game (aka, how to add) to someone who's never heard of mathematics before. I'm almost done, but it's pretty ridiculous.
Metroid Prime 2 comes out tomorrow, so I'm quite excited about that :D! I've got a three hour lull in classes, so I'll use that time to eat and play the game. Excited is me!
Afest is this weekend. Can't wait. Secret cosplay will be revealed and hopefully well received. I say nobody's going to expect it and guess what? I'm pretty sure I'm right :D
I'll try to post more. Hopefully.
That'd be really ominous if I never posted more again due to a crazy accident in which I become allergic to the internet. You'd better kill me then, cause life without being able to see creepy pictures and talk about nothing for 12 hours isn't really a life at all.
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05:00 pm
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Photo Journal of trip to Denver
Yeah, so this past week was pretty tough for me. As a result, I decided to do some soul searching in Denver. Dunno why. Just seemed like a good place to go. So here's my photo journal of the trip.
( The Trip )
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02:38 am
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Wait, what?
The Imp of Perverse In Action
By: Colby Sites
Hi, my name is Kent and I was taken by the Imp of Perverse. You know, the one from Poe’s story? Yeah, that thing had me.
When I first read Poe’s story, I knew instantly what he was talking about— the little voice in your head that tells you to do things. Like when you’re in a boring class like Calculus and you think to yourself, I wonder what would happen if I punched the professor in the face and left. That voice is what had me.
I didn’t expect it at all. I usually have a great amount of will power. I’ve lost thirty pounds over the course of three months, given up the internet for Lent, and kept my desires at bay in favor of rational thought. Today was different though.
I was at the mall when my whims started to take over. My friend Robbie was inside Hot Topic looking at Nightmare Before Christmas shirts two sizes smaller than what he wears, when I thought to myself, What would happen if I went in there and started reciting quotes from the Bible?
I laughed to myself. They would probably pounce on me or try and strangle me with their chain wallets and spiked belts. I settled into the bench I was seated on and looked around. The second floor of the mall was packed today with more Goths that usual. I hate Goths. Robbie’s an exception since we had been best friends since childhood, but all other Goths I hate. They can’t get a grip on life and see how good they have it. Sometimes it just makes my blood boil.
Like at that instant. The more Goths I saw, the angrier I got, and the louder the Imp was getting. I wandered off down the hall in search of something to distract me from the Goths. Robbie would be a while yet and I needed a release.
I walked down the hallway a ways until I came upon what set me down my path: the Neo-Christian Conservative Hippie store Mother Earth and Christ. I entered the store, just to entertain the Imp.
Hemp shirts and woven sandals were on the shelves I passed until I came to what must have been a sign: a sign advertising bibles for sale. I still don’t know why I shucked out $17.50 for a bible, but I did.
The walk back to Hot Topic was not a comfortable one. I passed Goths left and right, the whole time clutching my Bible. It called out to me. It was a voice. It was the Imp.
I made it to Hot Topic and went inside. Goths surrounded me, engulfed me. I felt like I couldn’t breathe the air of their faux-black souls. Their angsting was deafening, a roar of fake problems that drowned out all sense and reason, except for one.
I climbed a shirt block and opened the tome. Before the cashier’s could lisp anything through their tongue rings, I started.
“In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth; and the earth being without form and empty, and darkness on the face of the deep, and the Spirit of God moving gently on the face of the waters, then God said, Let light be! And there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good, and God separated between the light and darkness.”
“Thir, you need to geth down from there,” a girl with pink hair, tongue ring, and nametag that said Raven told me.
“He separated the Darkness, that’s you! But you can atone for your sins!” By this point, the Imp had me and was verbing the words out of my mouth. “If you miscreants throw down your arms, your pants that have all kinds of crazy nonsense pockets and ripped up shirts, you can atone! If you men stop wearing make up, and you girls cover up your ugliness a little more, you can all be set free of your sins!”
“Thir, I’m going to athk you one more thime, pleath get off of the block,” Raven said.
“Or, you can put a dollah in my bag!” I said. I placed the bag that the bible came in on the floor. “Come on! The path to salvation is through reform or in your wallets! One of the two will do!”
A timid kid wearing an Audioslave shirt walked up and put a bill in. The Imp didn’t care to see what it was.
“This boy right here has been saved!” I yelled.
“That’s it thir, thecurity ith on their way,” Raven threatened.
I gave her a puzzled look. “By God, I have no idea what you said young lady, but I can assure you, I did not like the tone in which you said it. I’ll be off now!”
She smiled the smug smile of a sneaky snake. “Good, now leave, Pat Robertthon.”
Okay, the Pat Robertson comment was too much.
Before I knew what was happening, the thick tome of the Holy Word was flying at the back of her head. This had been a dream of mine for quite some time, except that the girl would say something smug, turn, then I’d hit her with a toaster. Too bad I didn’t have a toaster, but a Bible worked out nicely.
All of the things I had ever wanted to do became attainable right then and there with the collision of Jesus to pink hair. I grabbed the nearest hot chick and totally made out with her. I then jumped up to the top of another clothes block and ripped the clothes from my body and shouted to the heavens, “I have the power!” But alas, this store was too small to contain my awesomeness. My dreams would have to be fulfilled in the hallway.
I stalked into the hallway and made out with the nearest hot chick. My emotions were running wild, and I thought to put them into a beam, aimed directly at the miscreants from Hot Topic. So, I did.
The Goths came surging through the doors to stop me from making out with another hot chick, or maybe to beat the Christian out of me, but they did not expect what happened next. As they bottlenecked through the door, I gathered all of my emotions into my hand. The emotions made a blue ball of energy and I screamed my battle cry.
“Hadoken!”
That could never happen, ever, unless had something to do with the Imp. Yes, of course, if I give in to my deepest desires, they will come true. A smile spread across my cheeks as I saw the Goths being blasted through the mall walls. My Hadoken worked.
I turned to the crowd that was gathering around me and smiled my wicked smile. They ran.
I moonwalked to the ledge of the second floor. It was only blocked off by a glass barrier that came up to my waist. With a swift kick, it was no more, and I was jumping. I hung suspended in air, almost like time slowed down, before landing on a vendor’s cart. Once the comedic cloud of dust cleared, the scene revealed that hotdogs were coming out of my mouth. I’ve always wanted to try that, ever since the days of Tom and Jerry.
I shook the hotdogs from my face and I looked to my left, where I spied the jewelers. Either they were stupid, or they had not seen what had been transpiring over the past couple of minutes. I walked up to them nonchalantly and said, “Let my try on that ring.”
The lady behind the counter smiled and pulled it out. The ring was placed delicately on my finger. She smiled at me, and I smiled back at her. I smiled at the ring too, especially as I walked out of the store without returning it or paying for it.
By now security had arrived and was waiting to take me down. I sauntered up to the man in blue and said, “Are you going to give me a ticket to the policeman’s ball?”
He laughed. “I’ve heard this one before. Yes, policemen have balls.”
I kicked him in the nuts. “I bet you wish they didn’t now.” Hey, if he wasn’t going to comply with one of my dreams, he may as well comply with another.
There were only two security officers and one was on the ground holding his balls. The other had none. She tried to mace me, but she was quickly disarmed and became hot chick number three to be made out with.
Both of the security guards were disarmed either physically or sexually, so it was time to move on. My dreams awaited, and it was time to make them true.
Screw Robbie, it was dream time. I sprinted through a wall and into the parking lot, leaving a hole the shape of my silhouette in the bricks. I ran to my car and started up the engine by hotwiring it. I ramped the parking lot divider, got on the service road, and ramped the median to get into the correct lane.
My insides felt more alive than ever. All of the things I’ve always wanted to do were now at my fingertips. I could do anything. But first thing was first.
I checked my Calculus syllabus and found my professor’s address. It was a Saturday and he was probably with his wife. But you know what? Screw that, he’s on my time now.
I crashed the car through his living room (yes!) and found him at the dinner table.
“Professor, you need to teach me a lesson now,” I said.
“May I finish my eggs first?” he asked.
I flipped over his plate. Then I flipped over the table for good measure. “Fuck your eggs, we gotta go!”
“’Kay,” he replied.
We hopped back into the car and sped off toward the college. My car was pretty beat up, but we managed to crash it through the front doors to the math building without it exploding. I sprinted downstairs with the professor in tote and kicked down the door to our usual classroom. I put him in the front of the class and I sat in my usual seat.
“Go ahead and lecture,” I instructed.
For twenty-five minutes, I was bored as hell. I lost my will to fulfill. But on the twenty-sixth minute, I remembered why I brought him here.
He was talking about limits as X approaches infinity, and in the middle of it, I stood up. The timing was perfect, as I knew it would be. He turned around to explain his point, and I punched him right in the face and walked out of the room.
One last dream. No doubt the cops were on my tail by now, and I didn’t have much time left. As the door to the room with the punched-professor in it was closing, I said to my victim, “I’ll be in the ballroom if the cops are looking.”
It never made sense to put the theater arts center next to the math building, but today, it was perfect. The big wooden doors were locked.
“By the power of Greyskull!” I yelled to the heavens and ripped the door from its frame.
I ran down the hall. Not much time left. I just hoped I remembered where the ballroom was. I had taken a class in Waltz last semester. I thought it was going to be a class over Walts, like Walt Disney, and other people named Walt. I was disappointed.
I threw the doors open, and there it was— the ballroom. It was a perfect replica of the ballroom from Beauty and the Beast, which made me happy. I climbed a pillar up to the second level and jumped to the chandelier.
I waited.
Some eighteen minutes later, I heard the cops down the hall.
“Okay, on my count, we storm the room and take out this maniac,” the person who I presumed was the captain said. They sure were loud about being secretive.
“3….” I readied my feet.
“2….” A dagger materialized itself in my hand.
“1….” I raised said dagger.
“Go!” I cut the rope.
The chandelier was now swinging toward the door. My strength was sapped. The dagger dematerialized itself as I held on with what little grip I had left in me. The chandelier crashed into the doorway and a mass of police officers.
The impact sent me flying through a wall and into the prop room. I landed in baseball uniforms from Damn Yankees. Not ironic at all, proof that my dreams were not coming true anymore.
“Freeze, you fucking psycho!” one of the non-demolished cops said.
“I can’t move,” I responded.
They were on me in an instant. I was cuffed and thrown into a cop car. I looked out the window and saw my Calculus professor giving me a friendly wave. I would have waved back, but that would have required strength and Houdini skills, neither of which I had anymore.
The Imp had been appeased. He would not be bothering me anymore. The sirens wailed and my insides squealed in delight. My smile said it all— the smile of a man who’s done it all and regretted none of it. I just hope my cell mate isn’t a Goth.
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12:57 pm
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Plans and stuff
Spring break is a few days away, and I'm pretty happy about that. I took a test today, and I know I got one wrong, but hopefully, I won't get much deducted for it. Feh. I've got a test tomorrow in Linear Systems, so imunna study my ass off at MEK tonight and after MEK. I may try to see Tami after MEK for a sec, since I couldn't see her at lunch. Or not. It really depends on how confident I am about my work.
Tami is amazing. Honestly, like she's really really amazing. I have high expectations that usually get defied by the girls I go out with. Y'know what? She's met and broke every one of em. Remember my post on Nov 7th about my cycle? I'm in stage 5, and I don't see myself leaving for quite a while, if ever. I haven't been this full of emotions in a long time. It feels good. I want to be a better person for her, it's weird. I just really really want to make her happy, since she makes me feel amazing without even trying. Good god, I'm in love.
Spring Break is going to be busy. I have to: get my hair cut, get my oil change, see about a job at best buy, see about summer school, edit my myth, do study guide for myth, do study guide for software engineering, try to write a short story, and hang out with everyone ever. So yeah, imunna be busy, but that's cool. I'm taking pictures of all the tech-o's to show Mike and Fe. And pics of Mike and Fe for the tech-o's to see. I'm also hopefully finding a converter to put our movies on my hard drive. My only regret is that we never got Gangs of Darkness on file. God, that was our masterpiece.
EDIT: Scratch that, found one!
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10:33 am
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oh crap, i have an lj, don't i?
Yeah, yeah I do. So, let's review some big news, eh?
These are my grades on my tests in software engineering, linear systems, electronics, and mythology, respectively: 85, 87, 90, 94. Yeah, I put em in ascending order, and what?
So, yeah, I'm doin aight in my hell load. I'm pretty surprised. Then again, my ability to do things is directly proportional to the work I have to do.
Ok, here's the lowdown on my hospital trip. Thursday night at 1, I was in Tami's room (I'll talk about her later), and I sat up to find that my eye started hurting. Right behind my right eye and above it was this crazy pain, I don't know why. I ignored it and went home. Well, it was pretty docile Friday, but I went to my grandma's house, where I lost her house key in a trip to get Tylenol sinus. I went to sleep at 9, and woke up at 3:45. A few minutes later, my eye started hurting again, but this time it was bad. I tried going back to sleep, but it's kinda hard when it feels like a snake is behind your skull trying to gnaw its way out. No, not a regular snake, y'know that huge one from snakes on a plane with those awesome teeth? Yeah, that one. Anyway, it got too much for me. I thought it was a sinus problem and that it needed to be drained immediately or something, so my grandma took me to the emergency clinic. They admitted me to the hospital, and did a cat scan on my head. The doctor told me that it was just a migraine and then shot me full of imitrex. He then gave me a prescription and I was on my way.
So yeah, I've got a new girlfriend, and she's nothing short of amazing. Most anime/vg girls get really boring or annoying after you talk to em for more than 10 minutes, but definitely not tami. She's a pokefag, and a narutard. I hate both of those shows, but it gives me material to make fun of her with, and that's cool. She's hot, and smart, and original, and caring. She sews and knits! WTF! It's crazy! Also, she cooks! Could you get a more awesome woman?! My studies say not! She likes anime, video games, badly dubbed/subbed anime is funny to her. Good god, she's so much like me that we're really compatible, but different in enough ways that I can't predict what she'll do next. That means she's interesting and not something i can control. Good god, she's awesome.
Anyway, I'm gonna take some Advil, put clothes on and get ready for lunch.
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11:10 pm
[Link] | When am I gonna actually update with a real entry? when i get emo, prolly. which, with the way i've been feeling lately, is probably gonna be soon. anyway, here's another survey thing!
(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) got your first kiss
( ) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
( ) made-out in a car
( ) made-out on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(?) fell in love
( ) had your heart broken
(?) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(?) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone minutes
(x) had a good relationship with someone (if relationship doesnt have to be a gf)
( ) suffered through teenage heartbreak
(X!XXXXXXX!!!!!!)someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your true love
( ) lost faith in love
( ) found the faith again
( ) kissed under mistletoe
WORK/SCHOOL
( ) got a promotion
( ) got a pay raise
( ) changed jobs
( ) waited until one day before to begin a project
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
(x) took an honors/advanced class
(?) broke the dress code (does wearing a skirt count?
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
(x) Got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one/a few teacher you really hated
( ) Failed a class
( ) cut class
( ) skipped school
(x) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) proved yourself an idiot
(x) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
(x) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile (if you count up all the times i ran this year, it's prolly a mile)
(x) saw a live concert
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
( ) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(x) laughed till you almost peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
( ) visited a foreign country
(?) broke in a line of waiting people (wtf does this even mean?
(x) volunteered to help out others
( ) visted a new state
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
(x) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
(x) got a gift you adore
( ) got arrested
(x) prank called someone
(x) saw a college football game in person
( ) involved in a car accident
(?) still in love
( ) wished you died
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01:12 am
[Link] | 1) Was 2006 a good year for you?
i've never had a bad year. just ones that are less good.
2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
so many. meeting my current favorite group of friends at tech would be one. midnight breakfast is a good one too.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
when i was all pissy on my birthday
4) Where were you when 2006 began?
oh crap. umm, justin's house i think. or somewhere else with justin
5) Who were you with?
justin, prolly pete, prolly weston, prolly phillip
6) Where will you be when 2006 ends?
justin's house
7) Who will you be with when 2006 ends?
see 5
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2006?
i said i was gonna get a girlfriend, so no
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2007?
prolly the same one
10) Did you fall in love in 2006?
*sigh* prolly a few times
11) If yes, with who?
can't say :D
12) If yes, do they know?
none do. most people i fall for don't know
13) Are you still in love with them?
maybe...
14) You regret it?
not at all. i regret being this emo and trying to hard to get a girlfriend instead of just letting it happen
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2006?
nope, did that last december. woo!
16) Did you make any new friends in 2006?
omg, did i
17) Who are your favorite new friends?
miranda, definitely. sesca, rachel, kandace, nicole, and the rest
18) What was your favorite month of 2006?
oh boy, ummm. prolly sometime in march. i just started going to mek and was editing my 2nd novel. and i found alot of amazing friends
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2006?
sadly, no
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2006?
1- connecticut
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2006?
no. but i gained alot of people that are now close to me, so there's more to lose
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
prolly
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2006?
ugh, again. Tenacious D and the Pick of Destiny, stranger than fiction, talladega nights, clerks 2
24) What was your favorite song from 2006?
you don't want me to make this list, really. i'll just list one. Dragonforce- Fury of the Storm
25) What was your favorite record from 2006?
+44's cd, the new D cd, the raconteurs, and my dragonforce cd
26) How many concerts did you see in 2006?
2- both piano squall
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2006?
the first piano squall concert. although he did give us bread in the second one
28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2006?
lol, none
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2006?
yeah, but they were all OTC or prescribed
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2006?
i never actually went to sleep with another person in my bed this year, but i came close a few times!
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
i'm a little regretful that i fell for so many people. but not ashamed, no
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2006?
"whatever, i'd fuck a hole in the wall" Sean still hasn't.
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2006?
probably, i definitely wouldn't doubt it
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2006?
i don't think anyone did
36) How much money did you spend in 2006?
ps3, wii. come on. i spent my fair share
37) What was your proudest moment of 2006?
4.0's all year, camping for ps3 and wii, making friends with the most amazing people on campus.
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2006?
losing an argument over how amazingly gay pokemon is
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2006 and change something, what would it be?
i'm pretty happy with how i did things. i'd like to ask some questions, then have that person never remember that i asked it, but other than that, it's all good
40) What are your plans for 2007?
1-do the best i can in college
2-get a girlfriend
3-play video games
4-????
5-PROFIT!
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01:54 am
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i did a test?
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01:35 am
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Posting!
Yeah, after taking heat from alot of loyal readers (me), I decided to update my LJ.
This semester has been going really well. My classes require more work than I'm used to, but that's good, if I'm to get through the Tuesday 9:30-5 hell that is next semester. I dont like my data structures prof. He tries to teach us this stuff when he himself doesnt know it. it's great. Jonathan and I have resigned to the idea of hitting him with a BMW (big meaty wang).
I bought FFXII. I'm really happy so far. I haven't had a good FF game since X, and that was a while ago, back before I got a recliner.
PS3 and Wii come out in 10 days and 12 days, respectively. That makes my heart eek with joy.
I'm feeling good about this week. I have to get done with my CS project before friday, but as it is now, that's really not looking very hard at all. Now, the other tests I have, those look a little daunting. I have to take a Lin Alg test on friday, a stats test next tuesday, and possibly a microcontrollers test on the same day. They just wanna pile it on right before Thanksgiving huh?
Speaking of Thanksgiving, Jack's spending it with me. That'll be sweet.
My heart has been messing with my head lately. I hate this so much. This is the cycle:
1. happy to be single
2. indifferent
3. need girlfriend. now!
4. get girlfriend
5. really happy
6. doubt
7. break up
8. repeat steps 1-7 until someone badass shows up, then repeat steps 1-5.
I'm hoping I can get done with step 8, and remain in a perpetual state of step 5. Dunno, though. It's probably a problem with me. I don't like asking girls out, so I wait for them to ask me out. It's probably because the girls I want to date, I have to see alot, and if I were to ask them out, that'd just be awkward as hell for everyone.
So yeah, I'm usually okay until some event triggers that need and then my heart starts to mess with my head, then I get crazy ideas in my head, then I hold off on enacting them. That's a good thing, cause most of the time, I would regret those ideas for the rest of my life if I used them.
help accepted, but not asked for. if you have advice to give, by all means tell me, but I'm not asking for it.
anyway, i'm done for tonight. hope people read this. otherwise, i was just summarizing the past 3 months for my benefit, and who needs that?
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10:41 pm
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Another test!
How does the world see me?
Song: Sasquatch
Artist: Tenacious D
Comment: dude, i'm ugly
Will I have a happy life?
Song: It's Time to Party
Artist: Andrew WK
Comment: oh hell yeah, it's time to party
What do my friends really think of me?
Song: Toxicity
Artist: System of a Down
Comment: i'm really not sure how to interpret this
How can I make myself happy?
Song: Jesus Ranch (album version)
Artist: Tenacious D
Comment: dude, no
What should I do with my life?
Song: Comedy Central Special
Artist: Pablo Francisco
Comment: should I be a comedian?
Why is life full of so much pain?
Song: Sweet Home Alabama
Artist: Lynard Skynard
Comment: see, my life's not full of pain
Will I ever have children?
Song: Jackass
Artist: The Vandals
Comment: will I have jackasses?
What is some good advice for me?
Song: Stairway to Heaven
Artist: Led Zepplin
Comment: to become an hero?
What is happiness?
Song: Turning Japanese (cover)
Artist: Incubus
Comment: no esta un weeaboo(but I all am)
What is my favorite fetish?
Song: Hit me
Artist: The Offspring
Comment: Okay, what?
How will I be remembered?
Song: Thunder and Rain
Artist: Sound Effects
Comment: I'll rain and have lightning
What will be a big challenge in life for me?
Song: Porn
Artist: Sean Cullen
Comment: I never thought of porn as a hurdle
Am I a good husband?
Song: Helena
Artist: My Chemical Romance
Comment: I guess I'm going to be the greatest husband ever?
Do I have a Secret Admirer?
Song: The Opera
Artist: Final Fantasy VI
Comment: I have a secret admirer and we both have complicated and exciting lives
How will I die?
Song: Other World
Artist: Final Fantasy X
Comment: I'm going to die like a badass
Is someone trying to kill me?
Song: Times Like These (acoustic)
Artist: Foo Fighters
Comment: Who has time to try to kill me? Let's all mellow out
What am I afraid of?
Song: What I believe
Artist: Sum 41
Comment: I'm afraid of myself. sounds about right
What will I be doing in a few years?
Song: Behind the Music
Artist: The Vandals
Comment: making my first cd?
What should I do instead of this quiz?
Song: Freedom
Artist: Thrice
Comment: I've just got to be freeeeeee.
What is a bad habit that I should try to stop?
Song: Under a Killing Moon
Artist: Thrice
Comment: I should try not to die due to the moon?
What's for dinner tonight?
Song: Forever Rachel
Artist: Final Fantasy VI
Comment: Womenz for dinnah? Sure!
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02:38 am
[Link] | Miranda suggested I do this, and I hold Miranda's opinion as one of the highest regarded things evar. She's smart. Anyway, here goes the random:
Why do I watch anime? I know why, that’s a stupid question. A better question would be why do I feel the need to find something with a compelling storyline, something that touches my heart? Really, that’s all people want, is to have their heart’s touched. Not stomped, or grabbed, just touched. Comedy, drama, satire, it doesn’t matter. Everyone wants something out of what their doing. Why do we listen to music? Because it makes us want to do things, gets us excited, or any number of things. Why do we read, or watch television, or write? Our lives aren’t providing for us what the various forms of media can. Life is one huge story, composed of smaller stories until the end. Hopefully, it will be a good ending. Will my life touch anyone’s heart? I know people will care, I’m just curious as to who. Anime allows me to step back from life and experience someone else’s, if just for a while. It’s not that I don’t like my life or feel that I need more. No, it’s because sometimes, my emotions need moving. It’s been a while since I’ve loved anyone. I don’t mean like family, I mean like a girl. I don’t want another relationship with someone I don’t gel with. Mallorie showed me what I hated about myself, and I’ve changed how I am based on my observations. I’m scared about my next relationship. I don’t want it to be like mine with Rachel, when she was never available for me, but I was always there for her. I sincerely hope I’ve learned from that. Why am I talking about love? It’s exciting, amazing, horrible, and mysterious all in one. So many people now have read stories or seen anime and think they need to always be at one spectrum or another. How many times have you said, “This love hurts me so much” in other words? And how many times have you meant it? People like me, hopeless romantics, people constantly looking for the next story, and individuals who can’t seem to find anyone yet, do this all the time. Why? I know why. Because we want our life to be lie a movie, a game, an anime, a tv show, a song, an album, a novel, a poem, and a number of other things. As I grow older, I want to get more and more in touch with my emotions and the truth about life. I’m slowly working my way there, I can feel it, but just as I think I know what I’m doing, I take a look back a year later and say “Man, was I stupid!” I keep repeating the same mistakes for no other reason than I forget them. This all sounds so true and good and like it’s coming from my heart now, but I can guarantee that in a few days, I will hate everything I said, and call myself stupid. My emotions get me in trouble a lot. Not because I display them all the time, but because I hide them too much. I always like to keep a cool exterior. It helps me get through life easier, being known as the one with a level head or the guy who can come up with ideas and stay calm under pressure. I like being that guy. And that’s why I am the way I am. But that doesn’t mean that I have to not be in touch with my emotions, and that’s something I’ve forgotten. I love stories, and I need to read and write them more often. My heart likes to be touched. I hope someone can do that, so I don’t have to stay with anime and media forever. I love anime and will never give it up, like video games, but to have a person who can do the same thing is amazing. I keep babbling on about this and that and love and emotions when I really have none to give. I’m just creating these to feel something, I think. And that’s okay. If I have a wife, I hope she’s good. But the way things are looking today, it should stay single and alone forever. It’s easier like that. There, now I have nothing left to write about. I won’t check this, nor will I care. This is how I feel right now and is not an accurate representation of my actual feelings. Y’know why? I don’t know what my actually feelings are. It’s my theory that people are all killed by the same thing. One second before you die, all the information in the whole universe hits you, and your brain trying to comprehend that much information shuts it down. That’s why there are vegetables. They’ve been hit with it, but their body still lives on. This has been random enough, and I’m done now. I’m going to hate myself for this tomorrow. I think.
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06:31 pm
[Link] | miranda has fun things to do:
IF A MOVIE WAS MADE OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
Put it on shuffle.
Press play.
For every question type the song that's playing.
When you go to a new question press the next button.
Ready? GO!
Opening Credits:
Final Fantasy VI- Atma Weapon
*wow, a weird, spacey kinda, fight song*
Waking Up:
Jimmy Eat World- The Middle
*whoa, my life starts off like a typical teen movie when they're following the cool guy. yayz?*
Falling In Love:
Leeroy
*you remember that leeroy jenkins thing from the internet? yeah, that was a .wmv and in my music folder. apparently, I destroy a plan, kill everyone and have chicken*
Fight Scene:
Full Metal Alchemist- Main Theme
*the first theme from CN. sweet fight scene music*
Breaking Up:
Thrice- To Awake and Avenge the Dead
*a really angsty song from the only band that has any angst at all in them that I listen to. Apparently, there would be alot of screaming on my part cause I was pissed? sweet guitar riffs, though*
Make-up:
Thrice- Paper Tigers
*another angsty song! apparently, I make up with the same amount of screaming and guitar riffs that I broke up with. wow. yayz again?*
Secret Love:
Rolling Stones- You Can't Always Get What You Want
*omfg, how appropriate*
Life's Okay:
Ram Jam- Black Betty
*Um, guitar riffs and a mildly racist song? umm, wtf?*
Mental Breakdown:
Nintendo- Super Mario World End Theme
*This plays the same song over and over again, but in different ways. It's really happy and brings back good childhood memories. Why the hell am I breaking down because I beat the ultimate evil(bowser) and am with friends(yoshis)?*
Driving:
Lost Prophets- Shinobi vs Dragon Ninja
*a modern hard rock song. I guess that's cool for driving. reckless and rough around the edges anyone?*
Flashbacks:
Nobuo Uematsu- J.E.N.O.V.A.
*Damn, I had an action filled past*
Happy Dance:
South Park- Kyle's Mom's a Bitch
*Fitting, I thought (I'm dancing and singing)*
Regretting:
Nobuo Uematsu- Ending Theme
*It starts off sad, but gets happy. kinda like when you're like "man, i wish i didnt do that" but then are like "well, if i didnt do it, i wouldnt have turned out this way"*
Long Night Alone:
Dane Cook- Super Hero
*Apparently, by my self, I'm incredibly super and have bad sound quality*
Final Battle:
The Vandals- That's My Girl
*A song about having a girlfriend who gets drunk at a party and makes an ass of herself (screaming she screwed the host, fallin over, puking, the whole nine yards). A very weird final battle theme, but hey, i'm down*
Death Scene:
Thrice- All That's Left
*I don't know how Thrice keeps sneaking itself into my playlist. Fitting and angsty with guitar, though, I think*
Ending Credits:
Utada Hikaru- Simple and Clean
*Umm, really? This one? That's incredibly badass. My life ends like kingdom hearts. So I guess that means I'll be really quirky, but everyone will love me in the end?*
Synopsis of my life-----
I'm a normal college student, making good grades, havin fun, and playing lead guitar in a band. Then I fall for a girl and have a huge plan to get her, which I make fail, but it still works. I protect her from my buddies in the government in a good fight scene and get some help from a big friend. She gets pissed that I'm friend with the military swine and breaks up with me at a concert me and my band are playing at. I kill the whole concert just to get off and have a screaming match with her. It ends, and in a few days, we meet in a dark room with red lights and scream at each other more until we start making out and end up getting back into a violently weird relationship again. I'm in a relationship with someone I know it isn't healthy to be with and I start falling in love with someone who is good for me, nice, quiet, but I can't get her. I eventually try and smooth over my emotions and try to forget about the secret love. I have some fun, acting like an ass and making inappropriate comments at socially embarrassing times, the normal. Then I see my secret love again and it leads to me trying to think about anything else but her. I can't though. Everytime I think of something different, it ties itself into a good, happy life with her. I decide to clear my head and drive, pissed off at myself to a place where I can think. I look back to my past and remember so many other obstacles I've overcome before and come to a conclusion about what I should do. I'm very happy, because I figure out that the relationship with my current girlfriend will crash and burn because she's violent and a little crazy. I wish I had never met her, but I also realize that if I hadn't, I wouldnt appreciate my secret love this much. I stay in my car at my thinking place, since I was supposed to go see my current girlfriend that night. I'm feeling really good about myself. The next morning, I see my girlfriend at my car window, screaming at me. I get out and she keeps yelling. Nothing can bring me down though. The whole time she's screaming, I'm smiling at her. That gets her even more pissed off. She starts making a complete ass of herself until she just gives up. I give her a ride home, for the last time. On my way over to tell my secret love what I've discovered, I get hit by a car. I'm critically wounded. Someone who's face I can't distinguish pulls me from my car and tells me to hold on. It's my secret love. I smile and tell her how I feel. She tells me she feels the same way. The only thing left for me to do is die, which I do happily, since I've accomplished what I wanted to do. In the end, I've had a weird life, but one I can be proud of and wouldn't trade for anything in the world.
Wow. That should be a short story.
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03:51 am
[Link] | a quicky. enjoy.
(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
| ✓ I miss somebody right now. |
× I don't watch much TV these days. |
✓ I own lots of books. |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. |
✓ I love to play video games. |
× I've tried marijuana. |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. (what guy hasn't?) |
× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. |
✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. |
× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (kinda, but I dont think alot) |
✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (kinda true because of my crazy keychain) |
( it goes on... )
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12:58 pm
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Finals? Who needs 'em?
I'm skipping out on my Differential Equations final. Shh! Don't tell my mom.
No, I'm kidding, I'm actually studying for it right now. Gotcha though, didn't I? Yeah, I'm good like that.
This is my final final, and I couldn't be more happy. I got the grade for my project 3 and it's alot lower than I expected. I asked Dr. Mengel for an extension and she gave it to me, so maybe the grader just thinks I turned it in late and took points off for that. I dunno, I'm going to call her and ask.
I feel good about finals so far. I packed all day yesterday and I think that's it until tomorrow afternoon.
Well, I've got to get to the studyin! Lots to do and only 18 hrs to do it.
~Colby
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12:01 pm
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No Livejournal, I didn't know I could now easily add a photo
I need to do that soon. I'll insert an image into my next post. I'm getting new pictures anyway, so I might as well, y'know.
Oh hell, I forgot this was open. My program is coming along. As of 12:24, I have 19 unresolved linker errors because of the retarded template. Blarg.
K, i'm too busy to finish this one, I'll just let it go.
~Colby
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03:53 pm
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Diff Eq test
And the results are in! I got a:
99!
Yes, I did. Now I can indulge in something. I dunno what, but I'll do it.
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01:59 am
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Blarg
I was wrestling with myself about whether to post tonight or tomorrow. I decided, obviously, on tonight. My reason? I'll forget tomorrow. Hopefully I'll read this post tomorrow and tell you the results of my diff eq test.
That's why I wanted to post tomorrow. There's not alot of news now, but there will be tomorrow. I get back my diff eq test tomorrow, and I'm really anxious. I also have to do my program for cs by the last monday of class. Shouldn't be hard. I just have to connect functions to buttons and make it all work.
Today was awesome. I got out of class early and headed over to horne/knapp. I hung out in the lobby for half an hour reading The Tempest until dinner. Then I got to eat with Miranda, Rachel, Nicole et al. That was sweet. Then we partied hard in nicole's room and headed over to Cold Stone where Miranda was doing a fund raiser. Oh crap, I just realized I didn't put any tip money in the cup. Oops. Sorry!
Anyway, then we headed over to Black Dog Anime. It was cool. The first thing he said was, "Hey, do any of you want a kitten?" Of course I want a kitten, but I can't keep it at the dorms. It was sad. He brought out the kittens and they were extremely cute. So was the puppy, but I'm a cat person. We hung out and skimmed anime for a while until the rain stopped coming down so hard. We parted ways and I came back here to Gordon. Worked on the Shakespeare paper. I can't remember if I took a nap. That's kinda sad. I tend to not remember things like that. No point. I was asleep, no point in remembering if I was asleep. Anyway, i got done with the essay and started writing this.
I hope things get better for Miranda. I really hope the best for her and I wish I could help. Well, I know I could try to help, but that wouldn't be helping at all. It makes alot more sense than it sounds. Things just seem to rollercoaster for her. I wish things could level out. But hey, that's what the summer is for, I guess. Have to make the best out of what we have left. I'm going to miss her this summer. Her and everyone else from Tech.
I'm hopeful for how this summer will turn out. It's looking great so far. I'm going to try and get a job with the Geek Squad, get an LCD TV and build a new desktop (nekkid of course), and find some anime I like. Oh yeah, I need to give Miranda my copies of Gundam Wing and G Gundam. That's her project this summer-- finish all of Gundam. A mighty task indeed! Hope this summer goes well.
Anyway, it's after 2 and I have a 10 AM class. Am I going to sleep? Hell no, I'm staying up for a while longer. I dunno why, I just am. I'll let this go now.
~Colby
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